Sunday, January 22, 2006
Changing Plans
Wow! It's been a WHILE since I last written in here. Well, that's nothing new. I've got several diaries/sketchbooks/journals/notebooks that can show you how inconsistent I am with recording my daily/weekly/& even monthly happenings. I'll try and do better (then again, that's what I always say.) *shrugs* eh, whatever. So what's been going on with me? Well, since I last wrote, MANY things have been going on but I can't possibly write everything here in one go. ...but I guess the major thing that I've been thinking about is college.
The original plan was to finish high school here then move to Massachusetts to further my education but like most plans of mine, they change. Turns out I'm going to be hanging here for the next couple (maybe even few) years. It depends on how long I get my associates. While working towards that, I'm guessing I'm going to have to get a job (minimum wage most likely) probably on campus. Maybe I'll be able to save a little bit of money and after I get my associates hopefully I'll be able to get a some what decent job, save up more money and then transfer to Massachusetts and hopefully I'll be able to then work towards getting my bachelors.
So why am I so set on going to Massachusetts? Well it's not because of a boy like some of my relatives like to assume for some reason. I've moved a lot (especially during freshman year) and I've always preferred New England weather. Yes, it gets blistering cold but that's what heaters are for. Here in Texas, it gets cold but it NEVER snows (well, it's VERY rare) ...and most of the time it's just ice anyway. The summers are wayyyy too hot here. Plus, they're not very big on public transportation here. I guess it would help if I knew how to drive so I can actually go places instead of staying cooped up here in the house but yeah, I haven't gotten around to that yet. But it's not only because of the weather and public transportation that I'm thinking about. I guess some where in my mind I've planted the idea that Massachusetts is the only place that I have somewhat felt some kind of security. Maybe it's because of the fact that it's the state that I lived in longest ...or maybe it's because of the friends that I look forward to reuniting with when I finally get up there.
People say that your school friends no longer matter after you graduate and everyone will be too busy living their own lives. Yes, that worries me to an extent especially the fact that I haven't seen some of my friends for at least a couple of years and it's been several months since I last heard from most of them. Maybe I'm riding on false hope that everything will be 'almost perfect' later down the line where I will have a good job, a nice home, and great close friends to hang with on the weekends. Yes I think about it some times, and most of the time I just push the thought away because in all honesty, I don't want to think about it. I only have so much that's motivating me and I gotta hold on to any motivation I can grasp because I don't want to be waiting for things to happen for me forever.
Right, I'm gonna go now... perhaps I'll write in this next year, maybe. ;)
The original plan was to finish high school here then move to Massachusetts to further my education but like most plans of mine, they change. Turns out I'm going to be hanging here for the next couple (maybe even few) years. It depends on how long I get my associates. While working towards that, I'm guessing I'm going to have to get a job (minimum wage most likely) probably on campus. Maybe I'll be able to save a little bit of money and after I get my associates hopefully I'll be able to get a some what decent job, save up more money and then transfer to Massachusetts and hopefully I'll be able to then work towards getting my bachelors.
So why am I so set on going to Massachusetts? Well it's not because of a boy like some of my relatives like to assume for some reason. I've moved a lot (especially during freshman year) and I've always preferred New England weather. Yes, it gets blistering cold but that's what heaters are for. Here in Texas, it gets cold but it NEVER snows (well, it's VERY rare) ...and most of the time it's just ice anyway. The summers are wayyyy too hot here. Plus, they're not very big on public transportation here. I guess it would help if I knew how to drive so I can actually go places instead of staying cooped up here in the house but yeah, I haven't gotten around to that yet. But it's not only because of the weather and public transportation that I'm thinking about. I guess some where in my mind I've planted the idea that Massachusetts is the only place that I have somewhat felt some kind of security. Maybe it's because of the fact that it's the state that I lived in longest ...or maybe it's because of the friends that I look forward to reuniting with when I finally get up there.
People say that your school friends no longer matter after you graduate and everyone will be too busy living their own lives. Yes, that worries me to an extent especially the fact that I haven't seen some of my friends for at least a couple of years and it's been several months since I last heard from most of them. Maybe I'm riding on false hope that everything will be 'almost perfect' later down the line where I will have a good job, a nice home, and great close friends to hang with on the weekends. Yes I think about it some times, and most of the time I just push the thought away because in all honesty, I don't want to think about it. I only have so much that's motivating me and I gotta hold on to any motivation I can grasp because I don't want to be waiting for things to happen for me forever.
Right, I'm gonna go now... perhaps I'll write in this next year, maybe. ;)
# posted by Sharon : 10:34 AM
